It's gonna be a good life

New Year, new life

After been struggling for 2 years long. I decided to move into KL stay with my love one.

Yes, finally. Should I glad on it?

I have no idea on it. Previously, I tend to be whine frequently due to just may met up my boy once a month.

When it comes to say goodbye, the feeling was awful.

I hate it.

Distance love was killing me inside. Everyday, We still greet in morning & able pillow talked at night, through phone.

We had so much to say between 330km miles away.

Counting the day was going to meet up  is my daily task.

Distance love was growth me up cause “Distance means so little when someone means so much”.

I set up this phrase as my what apps status in order I may read this when I felt alone.

I couldn’t get a hug while I need him cuddle as well.

I couldn’t see his smile while I share my stupid story with him.

I need to be independent when something happen should be solve instantly.

I wave my tears away with my soft palm while I overwhelmed and he whisper in my ear encourage me be strong.

We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation.

Eventually, it is come to the end at least we could remain 0 distance to each other after this.

We could pillow fight replace with pillow talked at night.

He may comb my messy hair and listen to my clumsy story again and again.

My what apps status may change to “If you promise to stay, I promise to never leave.”.

Sounds great isn’t it?

Unfortunately, nothing is perfect.

I had to give up my family, friends, food, pillow, car’s, everything that I had been gain sweetness memory in this beautiful island, dump it behind moving forward.

I know I will be missing everything in here, in future reminiscing back would made my tears fall.

Somehow, when people’s growth up, mature thinking cross apart.

I’ll felt awful to leave now cause realize that I did not pay much attention to my parents.

They growth me up, make sure the best thing I ever had.

By my side, from I learned to crawl, walked, run, fall, stood up once again.

They’re my sunshine bright my world cause they knew I fear in dark.

Finally, they let me go to develop my future which 330km far away from them.

I may felt their heartache and sadness to letting go.

I’m counting up how to make them felt my love beside satisfy every needs they want?

I told my boy please do allow me back to hometown once a month to accompanies my family members , cause I will be cried like baby when they’re not around.

And what’s now? The day is getting closer and my heart was feeling reluctantly .

Sigh, the day go on… I need to cope with this.

Settle down… welcome my new life, my life , my choice.

I knew I can handle it .

Cheers world! 

Someone

Someone came into my life

Keep me happy pleased my mind

Time fly by

We ruined everything

But he leave me without any single word had his said

We're strange to each other being a while

At first, every night I cried

At last, I learned to be independent with hard tried

After this, someone came into my life

Yes, someone new he never knew

Thought I has been met my Mr.Right

Who knows, We're both just living in lie

Once again, my heart been tear apart hundred times

I tried hard to keep myself survive

Never reminiscing back those memories are fool me quite lot times

Rejuvenation in love does not wake my mind

Since being hurt for one time who will fall into twice

Although it's hurt when I still loving him

But for god sake keep my soul survive never gonna tried

"Friend" is perfect clarify between both of us

Perhaps it is more better for us unclarify

After been a year

I met my "him" when there is no reason for me to push away such a nice guy

Right this moment he came back to me ask me why

There is no why for us keep struggling in the strange situation where  you're not belong to me

Now I found another one who was really belongs mine

Hope that he will wish me all the best and satisfied

The ending might came earlier for you while you still though that we had  second chance to tried

But I'm apologize for all the past cause girls are weak in love when failed  to hold on

Don't blame at my cruel while boy cruelness was killed me deep inside

I move on with no way back prevent bump you twice

Sometimes you have to let things go, so there's room for better things to  come into your life.

Therefore, I decided to move on

I'm just an ordinary girl who was mutual as other.

We might be hurt in our journey.

No candy or lollipops for us if your feet not made any movement

Enjoys big picture you has been missed while struggling keep holding on  miserable relationship

Stay strong, Be positive. We all struggle sometimes.

Just move on, it's the past. Life is not perfect and nothing lasts.

I move on, I found the great one.

How about you?

Your decision changes your life.

Love ❤

Feel so great when Love is in the air. Seems my friends are being in pair.

When single play true or dare, after click on it couple rings put on wear.

Every move, every gesture and the glimpse ,fascination atmosphere

Quick,Sweet, melting kisses between promises.

Take a deep breath you cross my mind from time to time.

People asking when why people change?

That’s no why. You had deal with nothing if remain.

Some peoples manage to walk out from past.

Some choose stay still makes own day suck.

Things are going great. For Once, and its feels good.

You’ll found out that  the things that were so painful to talk about, are surprisingly not that bad anymore. 

You can see your “ex” in the hallway and not get butthurt about how he/she never liked you in the first place. You’ll become so good at handling situations and you haven’t noticed it this entire  period. experience is a brutal teacher, but it’s the fastest way to learn. It growth you up and taste some sweet of love if cupid quick trigger.

Anyway I glad to hear that peoples around me has been no lonely anymore, they deserve it after struggled been stone age.

I wishing everyone love endlessly and thanks god cause you finally found ya.

Neither Mine.….