New Year, new life
After been struggling for 2 years
long. I decided to move into KL stay with my love one.
Yes, finally. Should I glad on it?
I have no idea on it. Previously, I
tend to be whine frequently due to just may met up my boy once a month.
When it comes to say goodbye, the
feeling was awful.
I hate it.
Distance love was killing me
inside. Everyday, We still greet in morning & able pillow talked at night,
through phone.
We had so much to say between 330km
miles away.
Counting the day was going to meet
up is my daily task.
Distance love was growth me up
cause “Distance means so little when
someone means so much”.
I set up this phrase as my what
apps status in order I may read this when I felt alone.
I couldn’t get a hug while I need
him cuddle as well.
I couldn’t see his smile while I
share my stupid story with him.
I need to be independent when
something happen should be solve instantly.
I wave my tears away with my soft
palm while I overwhelmed and he whisper in my ear encourage me be strong.
We are the perfect couple, we're
just not in the perfect situation.
Eventually, it is come to the end
at least we could remain 0 distance to each other after this.
We could pillow fight replace with
pillow talked at night.
He may comb my messy hair and
listen to my clumsy story again and again.
My what apps status may change to
“If you promise to stay, I promise to never leave.”.
Sounds great isn’t it?
Unfortunately, nothing is perfect.
I had to give up my family,
friends, food, pillow, car’s, everything that I had been gain sweetness memory
in this beautiful island, dump it behind moving forward.
I know I will be missing everything
in here, in future reminiscing back would made my tears fall.
Somehow, when people’s growth up,
mature thinking cross apart.
I’ll felt awful to leave now cause
realize that I did not pay much attention to my parents.
They growth me up, make sure the
best thing I ever had.
By my side, from I learned to
crawl, walked, run, fall, stood up once again.
They’re my sunshine bright my world
cause they knew I fear in dark.
Finally, they let me go to develop
my future which 330km far away from them.
I may felt their heartache and sadness
to letting go.
I’m counting up how to make them
felt my love beside satisfy every needs they want?
I told my boy please do allow me
back to hometown once a month to accompanies my family members , cause I will
be cried like baby when they’re not around.
And what’s now? The day is getting
closer and my heart was feeling reluctantly .
Sigh, the day go on… I need to cope
with this.
Settle down… welcome my new life,
my life , my choice.
I knew I can handle it .
Cheers world!
